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ang tagal na din..

2008-07-09T19:14:00.000-07:00

hehe.. nabasa ko ung nasa shoutbox ko.. haha,

ate khen.. nakakatawa man, ngaun ko lang po nabasa ung message mo sa shoutbox pero ung post mo po pala eh last january 9 pa po pala ung message niu po, sorry po.. hehe

kissess.. hello, haha.. nagtetext naman ako minsan pero ngaun lang talaga ako ulit nakapag open ng account ko sa blogspot kasi kung di ko nakakalimutan mag open, malamang nun may ginagawa ako kaya di ko na nabubuksan, hehe.. senxa na kung yung sa dota pa din ang post, hehe.. try ko nang mag update ngaun monthly.. try ha.. hehe

gia.. tagal na din pala nung message mo, opo karen oliveros po to,, hehe

i hope makapag update na ko nito maonthly, hehe.. dami din kasi inaasikaso, eh la naman kami internet sa bahay kaya bihira kung makapag open (define bihira.. last year pa ang last post.. hehe)

God bless po..

repost: The Truth About Warcraft III: DOTA

2007-09-30T04:18:00.000-07:00

This is a slightly edited (for clarity and easy readability) repost from this page. The blogger says he got it from the Friendster bulletin board.

I know most people might react defensively to this one, especially those addicted to DOTA and those who have something against Christianity and what the Bible says. But I'm just sharing for the benefit of those who wish to be enlightened with this truth. So don't hate, and don't flame. Simply read no more if you don't wish to.

ANCIENT question: Who is Ancient?
Answer: God (Revelation 1:8, 21:6, 22:13), but Satan disguises himself and deceives us, saying that he is the Ancient One.

Question: Why?
Answer: Who do you think you will defend in this game? Whose defense is this (with those cheats and verbal acknowledgments later to be discussed)?

The obvious aims:
To kill your enemy
To destroy the tree of life for sentinel
To destroy the frozen throne for scourge
And TO BE BEYOND GOD-LIKE in this game
The real aim: Worshiping Satan through CONSCIOUSLY ENJOYING the game (so if one enjoys it, he's a worshiper of Satan, plain and simple).
Why? Because this game is extremely a deception from Satan and you are actually enjoying it.

THE GAME
There are two bases or teams:
Sentinels vs. scourge
Good ones vs. monsters
Human vs. dark evil
Weak vs. strong
CHEATS:

WHO’S YOUR DADDY
This is used to become stronger
But actually this cheat pertains to admittance that your father indeed is Satan
GREED IS GOOD
To have more money
It feeds your mind that it's fine to love money because you need it
In Ecclesiastes 5:10-11, it says "Those who love money will never have enough. How meaningless to think that wealth brings true happiness! The more you have, the more people come to help you spend it."
I SEE DEAD PEOPLE
This allows you to see the map
The truth behind it is that spiritually the players and those who are involved are dead. They don't have real life for they are being used by Satan to praise him through this game. Dead people!
VERBAL ACKNOWLEDGMENTS:

OMG (Oh, my God)
The Bible states, "Do not use the name of the Lord in vain!"
BULLS**T, HOLY S**T
Need not to explain "Good job!"/"Good work!"
When you killed somebody
You are being congratulated with a good job or good work
TESTIMONY:
At the dawn of February 26, 2007, my brother dreamt of 2 dreams. First, he dreamt that Jesus was showing how evil DOTA was, then he woke up and blurted out: "Ayoko na mag-DOTA!" He fell asleep again and had his second dream. He was talking with a friend who in real life doesn’t want to play DOTA anymore. When my brother blurted out once again, "Ayoko na mag-DOTA!", a man came near to him and laid hands on him, cursing my brother. When they rebuked it in Jesus' name, it disappeared. Then, when he shouted, "Hindi na ako mag-do-DOTA kahit kailan!", Crystal Maiden (one of those unpleasing characters in DOTA) appeared to my brother. My brother told us it felt like he couldn’t breathe. My brother rebuked it in Jesus' name and told it, "Hindi na ako magpapabitag sa iyo! I belong to Jesus!" Then he woke up and ran downstairs. He told us everything, and we prayed for him. My father helped him renounce it and right after he surrendered, he puked, and we brought him to hospital. But our family claimed that Jesus is victorious and Satan will never win. He had a testimony about his dream the Sunday after he experienced it. After he witnessed, those who were involved in DOTA were prayed for.

Note: Akala ng lahat laro lang and DOTA, pero si Satan hindi nakikipaglaro. He is using DOTA to pollute the minds of our youth. Ephesians 4:27 says, "Don't give the devil a chance!" If you ignore this, it’s at your own risk. This is the TRUTH. Do not be blind and do not harden your heart. Please pass this...

As I understood it, the family of the boy who gave the testimony and the one sharing this bulletin board post is Christian! Hallelujah! It would've been harder for the boy to be delivered from that bondage had their family been otherwise.

I'm not a DOTA player, thank God, so I don't really understand the works of the game. I am familiar with the older Warcraft versions though. And I have seen personally how players like the old me, especially the addicted ones who have already traded their social lives and even their careers with playing, were held captive by the power of those games. In my case, I was a Ragnarok Online player famous among my blockmates for my addiction to it. I got irritated most of the time when my mom would tell me to go to bed already after she has already awoken during weekends (I used to play hard from 10 in the evening till 9 in the morning, at the latest, when my brother wouldn't play). I influenced my tropa to play Ragnarok Online. I would cut classes with some of them just to play at a nearby PC rentals shop. Though I was not the loud type, you know, the say-all-the-bad-words-that-you-can kind, I was still as captivated inside as all the others were. I would also say foul words inside my head when things went wrong with my character or our dial-up connection was crappy (yes, imagine playing an MMORPG with dial-up, imagine all the annoyance). Things like that. Praise God I have stopped with all the LAN game and MMORPG addiction! Whew! ...Unfortunately, my brother still hasn't gotten a hold of his addiction to Ragnarok Online and other video games, especially since he still is an official bum right now.

Lord, please help all those in bondage to the seemingly plain and innocent fun and enjoyment acquired from satanic PC and video games. Help the youth, Lord...

--- this is a repost from kuya myk's blog.. tingnan nio kung anu ung ginagawa ni satan para sirain ang buhay ng mga youth,, but i know with God nothing is impossible.. ;p darating ang time na ung mga youth na yan makakasama na natin magpuri kay Lord.. ;p

No One Else Knows...

2007-09-19T04:28:00.000-07:00

My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smileS
till I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again

I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the
emptiness inside my head
I am fallingI am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flyingLord I am flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your armsAgain
I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands

-- kanta po yan.. at talagang nag minister sa buhay ko yang kantang yan especially sa mga pinagdadaanan ko at ng pamilya ko ngaun.. i know that God just want me to be strong at maging mas mature pa, some of my friends ang co-dancers alam kung anu man ung tinutukoy ko, time will come na maisheshare ko din un sa ibang tao.. kung sino man po ang taong close sa akin na makakabasa nito, ahm.. wag nio na lang muna po akong tanungin for now.. in God's own time na lang po saka tayo magshare-an, hehe.. and kung nappuzzled kayo kung ano yun.. hmmm.. sabi ko nga po in God's own time na lang po.. God bless, alam naman po nating lahat na hindi lahat ng bagay eh maikukuwento natin.. hehe, God bless po ulit,

pambihira..

2007-09-15T04:15:00.000-07:00

gusto ko sana magpost kaso aabutin ako ng ilang taon dito.. hehe, sira kc ung keyboard.. kaya next time na lang.. hehe.. sayang, ;p

elow people..

2007-09-04T06:25:00.000-07:00

hehe.. kailangan kong makahanap ng oras para makapagblog naman ako! hehe, kasi nireremind nila ako palagi na iupdate ko naman daw ito! haha.. special mention.. si panjei!! hehe.. araw araw ba naman! hmp.. hehe.. salamat sa pagreremind! hehe.. promise hahanap talaga ako ng time para makapag post dito ng seryoso.. hehe, God bless po sa inyong lahat!

i'm back...

2007-08-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

elow people.. hehe, ayan may post na ulit ako.. ang tagal ko din po kcng di nabuksan ito dahil di ako nakagawa agad ng account sa gmail noon.. kaya gnun, hehe.. ngaun ko lang ulit nabuksan matapos nila akong iremind lahat! hehe.. panjei,, ayan na 3rd year na ko! hehe, hannah.. updated na ulit! hehe.. ang problema na lang, i need to find time para makapapost ulit dito kc dmi na din pong inaackso sa skul.. may thesis na nga po kmi eh,, help naman jan.. hehe.. as if naman na pwede.. pwede naman actually, by prayers nio.. diba?? panjei.. aabot ka din jan.. aja! hehe.. so.. til next time na makapagpost ako! hehe.. God bless you all..

wE're baCk hoMe...

2006-09-24T22:21:00.000-07:00

hey guys.. eto na naman ako.. after kong mgpost ng mga ilang months na rin ang nkakaraan. hehe..
alam nyo dati sbi ko ky Lord, 'Tay, ang gaganda ng testimony nila..' (ahm.. everytime na nka2rinig po ko ng taong ngtetestify tungkol sa buhay nila.. kung pano sila naging Born-Again Christian..gnun..) wlal lng.. sdya pong natutuwa ako sa kanila, nkakatuwa naman talaga diba.. ako po kasi, born in a christian family. born again na po sila mama nung ako ay nailuwal sa mudong ito.. hehe. kaya para bang wala akong experiences na mga gnun.. laking sunday school po kasi ako. wahehe.. eto seryoso na, si Lord naman bigla akong binigyan ng itetestify.. hmmm.. hehe. and lam nyo?? sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko ngaun talagang masasabi ko God works talaga.. pwamis!! and totoo na if you delight yourself in the Lord.. He really gives the desire of your heart!.. grabe.. TOTOO TALAGA YAN.. to be continue.. hehe

obedience is better than sacrifice..

2006-02-16T05:34:00.000-08:00

hi..well im back!haha..
nalulungkot ako kasi mamimiss ko ung ministry ko and xmpre ung mga kasama ko sa ministry.. mahirap man para sa kin na umalis sa COG, wala naman akong magagawa dhil i need to obey my parents. Almost one year na rin kaming di magkakasama nila mama sa iisang church(mahabang story..). Namimiss na daw nila ako and gusto naman nila na magkasamasama naman ulit kami sa iisang simbahan. Ang church po namin ngaun is ung CCF.. xmpre nakakapanibago!.. lalo na ibang iba kasi ung mga taong nakasama ko sa COG, xmpre lahat tayo iba-iba. grabe alam ng Lord kung gaano kong kamahal ung mga taong nakasama ko sa ministry and sa church. maga nga mata ko nung umuwi ako ng bahay last JANUARY 29..hehe! pero alam ko naman na sa lahat ng nangyari eh may plan si Lord.. i know na lagi ko pa rin xng kasama kahit saan man ako mapuntang church. (pero di pa rin ako nawawalan ng pag-asang makabalik kami sa COG!!!hehe..)

... ;-)

2005-11-08T23:49:00.000-08:00

Remember Me This Way

Every now and then
We find a special friendwho never lets us down...
Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...
I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,
watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leaveas long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for youand hope it will come true
if life will just be kindto such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
o.....this way.

thank You Lord...

2005-10-06T06:56:00.000-07:00

JESUS You are my beSt_friEnd!.. grabe totoo yan! di talaga tayo kayang pabayaan ni Lord sa kahit anong bagay na gagawin natin! God loves us so much.. gusto ko lang pong i-share sa inyo ung natutunan ko! syempre hindi nyo naman maiintindihan kung di ko sasabihin ung dahilan.. ksai po ganito un, isa kasi sa mga ugali ko ung selosa and minsan pag nagkakaroon ako ng friend at feeling ko eh gusto ko xng maging kaclose eh nagfofocus lang ako dun sa taong un! (oopps.. wag nyong gagayahin yan! bad un! dapat kay Lord tayo nagfofocus!) napansin din yan ng leader ko sa team namin sya si.. akin na lang un! at dun sa mga kaministry ko na lang po un! kailangan lang po namin protektahan ang taong yun! hehe.. joke! un nga nagfofocus kasi ako sa tao.. last July 24, 2005 may nakilala po ako na bagong friend and un! sa kanya nanaman ako nagfocus kaya un.. pag di napansin nasasaktan! hehe.. isa pa pag nagfocus kasi tayo sa taong close sa atin o mahal natin eh masasaktan lang tayo, tama na ung mahal natin sila pero kay Lord natin ituon lahat lhat as in LAHAT tlaga! para di tayo masaktan.. un nga dun sa friend ko po na nakilala ko last july nagkaroon po kami ng problem.. hehe! at ako ang may kasalanan dahil sa sobrang selosa ko! na hindi naman tama! dba.. after two weeks ska lang kami nag kaayos nung friend ko and happy ako kasi dun sa two weeks na nagbigay kami ng space sa isat-isa eh madami po akong natutunan! nung mga time na un tinuruan ako ng Lord na maging mature lalo na pag dating sa kaibigan.. grabe talaga! alam nyo ba after nung nangyari iba ang pakiramdam ko.. feeling ko wala akong itinatagong hinanakit (wow.. lalim nyan ha!) sa heart ko.. para bang lahat nailabas ko na! yung tipong wala ka nang itinatago sa friend mo.. haha! xmpre maliban dun sa mga peronal na talaga na sau na lang dapat! alam nyo dahil dun sa nangyaring problemang yun tinuruan ako ng Lord ng kung paano maging mature enough sa mga usapang kaibigan!.. eh i pray nga po na tuloy tuloy na ung maturity na un dahil alam ko din naman na ako din ang mahihirapan pag di ko binago ang mga bagay bagay na un! kaya ung iba na until now eh ganyan pa din po ung pinapakita nating ugali lam nyo pagpray natin yan at si Lord ung bahalang tumulong sa atin na mabago ung mga ugali na ayaw natin basta we are willing to change din.. di naman pwede na hindi tayo willing dahil walang mangyayari! kaya un.. hmmmm! always trust God! never nya tayong pababayaan.. promise! cge po.. God bless! ;-)

Sincere Intention VS. Mature Attainment

2005-09-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

from the book Passion for Jesus by Mike Bickle
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During those past few years, in my s\zeal to please God and be like Him, I run into His holiness. I was encountering my own sin and weakness, awakening to my total inability to change my own heart. In short, I, like the apostle Paul, had come face to face with my own human weakness. (see Romans 7)
I thought of Paul, a zealous personality who was transformed and filled with the holy passion as a result of seeing the splendor of God's personality. For the surpassing value of knowing a glorious person, Paul counted all the things but rubbish in order that he might gain Christ (Philippians 3:6-9).
I reralized that I, like the erring nation of Israel, had possessed an enthusiastic but totally unenlightened zeal for God (Romans 10:2-3). All human zeal had been able to produce was a perfectionistic performance mentality and merciless self-condemnation that resulted in religious anger filling my heart. I had been struggling earnestly to reach the top of the ladder of works and self-righteousness. But when I looked up, I realized that the top of the ladder, still far beyond my grasp, was leaning against an insurmountable wall of guilt, frustration and powerlessness.
I had been living under crushing condemnation, struggling under the painful misconception that God had judged me by my attainments and thus rejected me. Yet, while I had been focusing on my lack of mature attainment, God had been looking at my sincere intentions. He hadn't been pacing impatiently back and forth in front of His throne, moaning and covering His face in despair or throwing up His hands infrustration every time I stumbled. He had been looking at my earnest desires and my responsive heart that said, "I want to do your will," and He was delighting in me. I was beginning to understand His overwhelming affection for me, even in the midst of my spiritual immaturity.
The Father-heart of God was a thrilled with me-an immature, mess-making, spiritual infant- as with one of His spiritually mature sons who had just graduated with honors from the school of the Spirit. My heavenly Father was enjoying me while I was yet in the process of maturing, not sighing in disgust and waiting impatiently until I grew up. He loved me even while I was falling short.
Oh, the sense of anticipation and excitement that filled my heart as I realized my Lord and I could have a tremendous friendship; such affirmation and affection; such love for each other; and such tremendous confidence in one another. It was too good to be true! I wept for joy. And when the tears finally ceased, I could sense the anger, bitterness, giult and condemnation melting away. My heart felt so different. As my confidence in Him grew, my heart became soft and pliable, fervent and warm. Understanding God's great affection for me ignited my love for Him. My little, flickering flameof human zeal was replaced by a consuming blaze of passionate love for a glorious person. His intense devotion and ardent affection for me far exceeded that of my earthly father's... and I knewI would never, ever, be the same.
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wala lang.. nag-strike lang po sa akin itong part ng isang chapter dun sa book.. hehe! God bless po sa inyong lahat..

mga fave songs ko po ito... wala lang!

2005-09-21T01:41:00.000-07:00

HOW DID YOU KNOW

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile
My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life
I'll never forget how you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

I WILL BE HERE

Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up
And the sun does not appearI...I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I...I will be here, I will be here...

When you feel like bein' quiet
When you need to speak your mindI will listen
And I will be hereWhen the laughter turns to cryin
'Through the winnin' and losin' and tryin'We'll be together,
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up
And the future is unclear,
I...I'll be here

Just as sure as seasons are made for chang
Our lifetimes are made for years
I...I will be here,

I will be here.... You can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're olderI will hold you,
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true
To the promise I have made
To you and to theOne who gave you to me
I...I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
'Cause I... I will be here....

We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

KAILANGAN KITA

Sa piling mo lang,
Nadarama ang tunay na pagsinta.
'Pag yakap kita ng mahigpit,
Parang ako'y nasa langit.
Ngunit ito ay panaginip lamang
Pagkat ang puso mo'y labis kong nasaktan
Pakiusap ko ako ay pakinggan

Kailangan kita, ngayon at kailanman
Kailangang mong malaman na ikaw lamang
Ang tunay kong minamahal
At tangi kong hiling ay makapiling ka muli

Ngunit ito ay panaginip lamang
Pagkat ang puso mo'y labis kong nasaktan
Pakiusap ko ako ay pakinggan

Kailangan kita, ngayon at kailanman
Kailangan mong malaman na ikaw lamang
Ang tunay kong minamahal
Ang lagi kong dinarasal

Kailangan kita, ngayon at kailanman
Kailangan mong malaman na ikaw lamang
Ang tunay kong minamahal
Ang tangi kong hiling ay makapiling ka muli
Kailangan kita

WARRIOR IS A CHILD

Lately I’ve been winning battles left to right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I’m amazing
I’m strong beyond my years
But they don’t see inside of meI'm hiding all the tears

They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t knowWho picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because his armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I’m amazingI never face retreat
But they don’t see the enemies
That lay me at his feet

They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor

TAKE ME OUT OF THE DARK

Just what is it in me
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in your love
Why you never let me go
And though you're in me nowI fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel
You have forgiven me
Too many times, it seemsI feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all
And though I love you so
Temptation find its way to me

Teach me to trust in you with all of my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
'Cause I just forgetYou won't give me what I can't bear
Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there
No, no, no more

You've never left my side
You gave your hand to me to hold you, Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold
And yet, I leave you there
When I feel satisfiedI'd like to thank you everyday
Not only when I feel this way
I've never known a man who'd give his life
For sinners like me
And yet because he loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise and be His
If we have faith and just believe

Teach us to trust in you with all of our heart
To lean not on our own understanding
'Cause we just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear
Take us out of the dark, my Lord
'Coz we don't wanna be alone
Take us out of the dark, my Lord
we don't wanna be there
No, no, my Lord

...d-a-r-n-a....

2005-09-14T00:46:00.000-07:00

hehe... nagtataka kayo kung bakit DARNA ang title nitong post ko noh?!.. may gusto lang po akong ishare sa inyo at ito na yon!.. nashare ko na po ito sa team namin sa dance wala lang! naisip ko lang po ito habang nanonood ako ng darna sa bahay namin!kasi nung mapanood ko ung isang episode nila na hinabol ni narda si prospera (mom ni valentina!) nung nasa sasakyan sya eh kaso inutusan agad ni prospera ung driver na magmaneho na kaya hindi na nahabol ni narda ung sasakyan.. after nun dapat lulunukin n ni narda ung bato para makpag-transform into darna! kaso pinigilan siya ni Ayong (caridad sanchez) at pinagsabihan siya na wag gawin un! why? kasi maaari nyang mgmit ung pagiging darna nya sa masama kasi ang dahilan nya eh para lng ipaghiganti si efren dun sa panlilinlang ni valentina.. at ang ibig sabihin lang non, iba ang kanyang MOTIBO sa gagawin nya!.. well siguro po nagtataka kayo kung bakit ko kinuwen2 yan, kasi ganito yun lam nyo kung ibbase natin sya sa Christian life.. as Christian and servant ni Lord dapat everytime na magseserve tayo kay Lord, dapat maayos din ang motives natin, dapat everytime na kakanta ka or sasayaw ka basta magseserve k sa Knya dapat ipacheck muna natin yung heart natin sa Kanya kung tama ba ang nasa heart or yung motives natin bago tayo magserve sa Kanya!dapat lagi nating tatandaan na All Glory is just for Him! dpat si Lord lang maitaas natin sa paglilingko natin at wala nang iba! hindi tayo.. kundi si LORD lang!.. wala lang nashare ko lang yan! so i hope everytime bago tayo magserve eh ipacheck muna po natin yung ating mga PUSO kay Lord! yan wag nating kakalimutan! this is just a reminder po sa ating lahat.. so hanggang dito na lang po! God bless po sa inyong lahat! God loves you po...

ang cute..

2005-08-04T02:52:00.000-07:00

hehe... ang cute lang po ni pooh.. yun lang! God bless po sa lahat! mwaaaahhhh.....

wehehe...wla lang!

2005-07-22T00:55:00.000-07:00

hahaha..ang saya naman! pambihira.. nahirapan ako sa pagexplore dito sa blogspot ha! buti na lang napalitan ko ung blog sa pamamagitan ng pagbabasa!hehe..as if naman po na hindi ako marunong bumasa..wehehe!
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ah magpapaka seryoso muna po ako ha..
alam nyo gusto ko lang magshare..ulit! lam nyo po nahihirapan na po ako sa relationship ko sa parents ko minsan po kasi di ko sila maintindihan eh! sana nga po may sariling blogspot ang COG..hehe wala na naman ako sa sarili ko at kung ano ano na po nasasabi ko!
sa totoo po talaga yun nga katulad po nung sinulat ko dati dito sa blogger ko..
nalulungkot nga ako kasi baka tumigil ako sa ministry ng mga one month para maiprove ko lang sa kanila na di ko naman ibabagsak yung mga subjects ko syempre ayoko din namang mawala yung scholarship.. nalulungkot din ako kasi akala ko pa man din may nagbago na sa ugali ng father ko dahil dun sa nangyari (pero atleast nagiba din kahit papaano ung sa spiritual life nya..) nung nagkaroon nga kami ng leadership training sa dance nun natuwa naman ako sa letter sa kin ng father ko.. kaso sa mga pinapakita nya sa kin ngayon para bang hindi totoo yung mga yon.. honestly may galit ako sa kannya pero syempre ayoko din naman na lumaki yung galit sa heart ko dahil alam ko naman po na hindi tama yun..magagalit si Lord sa ganun! sa ngayon kasi nahihirapan ako sa pagpapaalam sa kanya everytime na meron po kaming session or practice sa church, ang bait nga ni Lord kasi everytime naman na magpepray ako eh tinutulungan nya po ako.. si Lord talaga di marunong magpabaya sa mga anak nya! ang galing nya po talaga.. kaya yung mga di pa nakakakilala kay Lord pray ka lang and say na Lord gusto koitang tanggapin sa buhay ko ngayon.. alam mo si Lord kumikilos talaga sa buhay ng mga anak niya..God bless po! ;-)
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share ko lang po...

2005-04-21T17:15:00.000-07:00

elow..actually second blog account ko na po to sa blog spot kaso nakalimutan ko na po yung password! (hehe.. may memory gap na rin ako eh!)
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alam nyo ang hirap ng situation ko ngayon but im still happy kasi hindi ako pinababayaan ni Lord ng mag-isa.. sa panahon ngayon nahihirapan kasi ako sa situation ng family ko.. minsan para bang hindi ko matanggap yung mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon! gusto ko sanang i-share yung problem ko ngayon sa family ko but masyado kasing personal.. siguro yung iba sa mga kaibigan ko alam yun, ito po.. nalulungkot ako minsan pag naiisip ko na maaaring mangyari sa ngayon na dapat kong i-give up yung ministry ko for my family.. masakit naman talaga yun diba?! but i pray nga na hindi mangyari yun kahit na ganito yung nangyayari sa amin ngayon.. for me kasi mahirap, dahil sa ministry na yun ako nag-grow at the same time dun na rin ako mi-nold ng Lord.. hanggang ngayon i pray na maintindihan ako nga parents ko everytime na rin na may praktis kami.. nahihiya na nga ako minsan sa mga kasama ko sa ministry kasi minsan di ako nakaka-attend ng mga session or practices.. waaahhhh! sa ngayon ang ginagawa ko ay kailangan ko munang mag-obey kahit na minsan alam kong maapektuhan ang ministry ko at ang ilang mga bagay bagay na nakapaligid sa kin! but i know na hindi naman ako iiwan ng Lord! hehe.. haaay.. i thank God kasi hinahayaan pa rin naman nila ko mag-attend sa church.. atleast kahit papaano naiintindihan nila ako!...